Words from an Insomniac still trying to find her way

I Never Claimed to be “The One”… Just Yours

 I’m here.

always here.

Waiting, wondering, questioning.

I always want to know

I need to know.

that’s just the way I am.

With every care in the world

with every emotion I can carry.

whether good or bad.


I care 

I have always cared.

that’s just the way I am.

Wasn’t it good

wasn’t it important in the beginning?

it’s what matters

I would be empty other wise

God gave me this

I don’t want to give it back.


So take it 

or walk away from it.

that’s just the way I am.

I don’t want to stop 

when it feels good to cry

to laugh, to care.

It is another way to love,

to fill a void, to end

the frustrations in life.


And I don’t want 

to be given a choice

of when or when not to care.

So take it,

or let go of it

If you dare.

if life doesn’t need it

I can’t force it upon you.

that’s just the way I am.


No wonder it’s hard to breathe

this heart is huge,

pumping hard

needing to give all

that it has to hold.

It’s beat, much faster

than my words can speak.

I didn’t ask for this

it’s just the way I am.


I am not made out of rock

not steel, or anything


Some days I wish I were.

but I’m always grateful that I’m not.

I am both weak and strong

Light and dark

positive and negative

but always here.



In the present

like I’ve always been.


I can’t be a savior

a miracle worker

I can’t even predict the future

but I can always be; just me.

Good and bad

happy and sad

angry and glad

confused and relaxed

but always here.


That’s just the way I am.


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